Thursday, April 4, 2013

Wow universe.

So I was a juvenile delinquent with little remorse into my late twenties. I had grown up on my own and was robbed of many things very early in life. I had no sense of right and wrong, I just hustled to take care of myself, bah blah blah.
And then I got awareness. I started from scratch and built a solid foundation where the rubble of my existence had been. I stepped towards the universe and it came rushing back at me full on and taught me everything I needed to know., parented me like a great parent. Gave me clear and simple lessons that have made me who I am.

This week my family was in town and I was a bit off kilter and I stole somone’s parking space. I was looking and waiting for 20 minutes and I had a hungry 3 year old in the car and we needed to get to the restaurant and there were no spots anywhere. And then I saw a spot and I made a u-turn and just as I approached “my spot” I saw someone else already had their blinker on, 2 cars up from the spot, they were going to back up a bit to grab the spot, but I got there first and I pulled in. However that might read, it was their spot. I saw the blinker, they had marked the territory. It was theirs. But I wanted it, I had seen it first, but could not get to it in time.
And I ignored what was in front of me and pulled into the spot before they could back in, I fronted in. and man did they get furious screaming and raving next to me. I just shrugged my shoulder and feel justified, because I had a toddler and I needed it. Me and my niece laughed pretty hard about it. it was fun. ah, crime ecstasy, i miss you. But I knew it was fucked up. 

And then a mere 3 days later I pulled into the parking lot I park in for over 8 years and  someone behind me honked . I looked to see what was wrong and they furiously pulled next to me and then drove past me and sat in front of me. I wasn’t bothered by their pulling in front of me because I figured the attendant would send then back around. Then a spot opened up and they took it and the parking attendant let them. I got out of my car and I yelled at both of them. What the f was that??!!!  I yelled at them both for a while but deep inside I knew that it was really hysterical. Pure and clean. Even Steven. Yes, universe, I get it.
Thank you of reminding me. Do the right thing. There is no such thing as being cheated. It is impossible. Trust. All transformation is possible.
not sure why you tube doesn't let me post songs anymore but if you are in the mood, so check out frankie lymon's "i'm not a juvenile delinquent" ancient history...

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